This page is in memory of my first born baby girl, Kaelyn. I gave birth to Kaelyn on May 7, 2000, 16 weeks early. She fought for her Daddy and me for 39 hours and 17 minutes. This was the best 39 hours of my life. I miss her so much and would have done anything to take her place as she left me. She weighed a mere 1 pound and 4.5 ounces! She was so perfect! When she left me on May 8, 2000, I thought my whole world was dying. Without her I feel as though I have nothing, she was my little princess! It has been two months today since my baby was taken away from me. I can't stop thinking of her. How beautiful she is and how much I love her. I want to be with her so badly. I have a poem that I found that I feel is perfect for my little angel baby. CAN YOU BE A MOTHER IF YOUR BABY'S NOT WITH YOU? I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother And I know I heard Him say A mother has a baby This we know is true. But, God, can you be a mother When your baby's not with you? Yes, you can He replied With confidence in His voice. I gave many women babies When they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime, And others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb, But there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here He took a breath and cleared His throat And then I saw a tear. I wish that I could show you What your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile When other children say: "We go to earth to learn our lessons Of love and life and fear." My Mommy loved me o so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mom Who had so much love for me. I learned my lesson very quickly My mommy set me free. I miss my Mommy O so much But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, On her pillow's where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek And whisper in her ear "Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here." So, you see my dear sweet one, Your children are OK. Your babies are here in My home They'll be at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a Mother, It's the feeling in you heart. It's the love you had so much of, Right from the start. Though some on earth May not realize you are a Mother, Until their time is done. They'll be up here with Me one day And you'll know that you're The best one!

I just want Kaelyn to know that her Mommy and Daddy love her more than anything in this world, and we always will. ~Amber and Marshall~

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