Hey Trory-Trory, It's hard to believe that it has been almost a year and a half since your passing... When I think back on the last 17 months I draw a complete blank. All I can remember & all I can think of are all my memories with you over the past six years. Like Sadies', the JV & V football games, at Cristy's, at the pole, in the bleachers, on New Year's, at Louie's, at grandma's, at "the house", on my birthday, my Mercedes, & of course the chastity belt pact! I remember the scent of your cocoa butter lotion, and your Cool Water & Nautica cologne. You were the only guy I knew who wore Calgon body sprays. I remember your Colgate smile, & your buff ass arms, "the gunz", & I will never forget how extremely ticklish you were. You were always there for me when I needed you. Whenever I needed someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, or just someone to hold me,.... you were always there. For six & a half years you were there, and I thank God everyday for allowing you to have been such a huge part of my life. Not a day goes by, that I don't miss you more and more, and as each day passes, another rises, and I still feel like this pain in my heart will never go away. I remember so much, but day by day I fear that these memories will fade without you here to remind me of them. I remember when I used to clown you for sporting the durag over your bean head. I remember the Cask n' Cream, MD 20/20, & Aliz`e like it was yesterday. I remember and will always cherish the way you used to poke my sides and call me "Punna," and then bite my thumb???? But most of all I remember when you once told me that you'd always love me and you'd be with me always in some form. My memories shall never fade, instead they will be cherished & live on... It's hard without you here... I miss you sooooo much and it hurts soooo much to know that no matter how hard I cry, you're never coming back. It hurts my heart so much, but this is something that I am going to have to learn to deal with for the rest of my life... With every breath like it's the last, with every beating of my heart, with every sunset, and with every tear I shed, you are forever missed. It frustrates me to know that I can't see you, or hug you when I need you the most. Or when some guy breaks my heart, you're not there to kick his ass for me... Who's gonna be my bodyguard now??? I feel so vulnerable, so alone, and so abandoned... I only hope that wherever you are, that you're safe and watched over. I love you, I miss you, & I will always be thinking of you. You are Always on my mind, Forever in my heart, Eternally in my soul, & Loved endlessly for being who you were to me!!!! I will cherish you in my HEART always, because your "Punna" Loves You Always!!!!!!!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~R.I.P Lewtenate Lootz~~One Love, One Life, One Heart~~~~~~~~~~~

Love You Always, Angelica C. Vindiola "Your Punna"

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