In Loving Memory of
Mark W.Carraway Sr.
Dear Dad,
I am not ready to let you go. You know you are my
best friend in this world. I have cried myself to sleep at night many times, worrying, and wondering what this day would be like. And the day is here and has passed - has the reality set in, I try to live in denial, it's easiest there. Before you passed in a whispered weak voice you said to me "I love you most!” It was something you told me every time I told you "I love you bunches" - Now Dad, it's changed to "I will miss you most". You slipped away so quickly, I hope that you know that I was with you. I told you that it has always been you and I and I would not have it any other way in the end. You looked over at me as if to say "it's time". I held your hand, I hugged your neck, I stroked your hair, I whispered "I am sorry dad! I love you dad! I will be alright! I am so sorry dad!" I pulled the oxygen mask from your face and asked for one last kiss, you kissed my tear soaked cheek. Your eyes fluttered as you tried to keep me in your site. The day of your passing was already very important to you, as you experienced one of the happiest days of your life that day 27 years prior... as that was the day I was born. The day that was once remembered as the happiest day of your life, quickly became the saddest of mine. I just wanted you to say "Happy Birthday" Instead you died in my arms. I have never felt pain like the pain I felt that day, and the pain that I feel every time I think about you and every wonderful moment.
It's as if you had it all planned, that is your life timing. You knew that I was finally ok, I have a great job, wonderful new baby girl, great husband. You knew that I had my adult life under control, you knew your job was done, all your painstaking years and hard work had paid off, and your little girl (in your opinion) is all grown up. I am so happy you were able to met Alexandra, and I am so happy that you were there for me when I needed you most, helping me in my first year of new motherhood. You were always there for me... that's why I had to be there for you.
I love you dad. I can't stand the thought of being without you. I will miss you everyday for the rest of my life. If there is a beyond, please watch over me. Help me to make the right decisions in my life. Help me raise this baby girl. Please stay with me dad. I miss you so much.
Stacey Carraway Kile
Your Loving Daughter
*The love of your life*
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