I'm so grateful to have known you. (I keep hearing that stupid ending to the Carol Burnett Show "I'm so glad we had this time together..." I know just saying that would make you laugh, that's my favorite job you know, entertaining Traci.)

How am I supposed to act now? Who am I supposed to call, to go eat with? Who will I work on special projects with until neither of us can stand to look at it anymore? And the worst part, the one person who totally understood how much you mean(t) to me is gone... the only one who totally understood was you.

I just wish I could just accept that you aren't coming back. I wish I could stop wanting to call you and tell you about the funny thing someone said or the riduculous thing someone else did. But most of all I wish I'd answer the phone and you'd be on the other end or I could check my e-mail and find one from you.

I love you Trace. Darn you, I'll always love you.