A NOTE TO HER ANGELS... Somewhere in the roots of the soil, on the ripples in the ocean, and in the tides that turn; somewhere in the droplets of rain, in the air that we breathe, and in the clouds in the sky, there you are. You are our guardians of life; our protecters. And though we cannot see you or touch you, we know you are there. We call you our "angels". You are as individual as each of us are, and we trust you to keep us safe for as long as our soul is meant to be. I know in my heart that our sweet Lauren Hope has had you by her side from the moment that she was born. In such tranquil beauty you delivered her to us; the picture of innocence, as she peeked at us from inside her swaddled cacoon of hospital blankets. You gave us such a glorious gift in moments never to be forgotten and never to be taken for granted. Thank you for our baby girl, and for choosing us to be her parents. Thank you also for the abilities you bestowed to Lauren. She had amazing strength and tremendous courage. Even before she was born, she had more obstacles placed in front of her than most will she in a lifetime. It was only with these abilities that Lauren was able to face and overcome her battles; you must have known that she was special. At the same time, you gave to us; her parents, the strength to trust in fate. No matter how high the odds were stacked, there was always hope. The eyes of a child often speak a thousand words, and Lauren was blessed with the most beautiful blue eyes and "butterfly" lashes. She had an amazing ability to make people fall in love with her at just a glance. I now know that this was a purposefull gift; it drew people closer to her, and it brought moments of joy to even the most distant of strangers. Thank you for letting people into her life in such a beautiful way; every soul she touched will forever be influenced just for having known her. You also allowed Lauren to be a teacher of some of life's greatest lessons. Never again will we take our lives for granted, nor the lives of those close to us; for none of us know exactly how long we have to enjoy each other. Each joyous laugh, each precious smile, and even each tear from a child is so healing... Lauren had many smiles, and tears, and hugs and kisses to give to us; each one now, like a frozen moment in time. She taught us also not to be fearfull of the day. Lauren charged through each morning until night, almost as if there was always something to overcome, and she never let anyone or anything stand in her way. We used to joke that this was stubborness, but we have learned that she was a fighter by nature. This quality helped her through the toughest of days. For a short time, you lent us our baby girl. She was a precious part of our family; as a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a neice. No matter how our family changes and grows, she will never be forgotten. On the day Lauren passed away, a special nurse held her hand and was witness to you; her angels, being all around the room... you came to bring her back to you. I can only guess that there was a reason for that; perhaps you missed her in heaven as much as we miss her now. I cannot be angry for this, but I will admit that I feel sad for it feels like a part of me is lost. I suppose in time this will heal. I know that she is with you now and that you are guiding her through heaven. I'd like to think that she has a special purpose up there; maybe she will become an angel as well. Whomever receives her guardianship will be tremendously blessed. Knowing all of this, and knowing that she is safe in your arms, I have some advice for you: Lauren loves to be entertained; allow her always to have a playmate. I know her brother will appreciate this. Sing to her a lullaby, or provide for her some sweet music; she will dance to her hearts content. Never leave Lauren alone; surround her with happy faces and with someone to talk to as she is a 'social butterfly'. Hold her tight when she is scared; your hugs and your warmth will ease her through the night. And most importantly of all... remind her that we love her and miss her dearly. Never let her forget those that still think of her everyday.

Love, Lauren's mommy.

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