As I attempt to put into words befitting a memorial for you, J.R.,I become more and more aware that words are an antiquated method of expressing the FEELINGS that have joined our souls together, not only in this lifetime, but, in all of the many lifetimes we have traveled side by side. Even though I know you are here with me in spirit, I miss your physical presence, the sound of your voice, the feel of your body(your hand holding mine), the joy of seeing your smile and that deep laugh that comes from the very base of your soul! As we approach the third year of your physical death, I find myself in a space that is so very familiar to the space I was in when you initially crossed over!! The heart and gut wrenching pain seems to echo around and around in the hole that I always thought was my stomach~~~I have identified that this hole is in my spirit and in my heart. I can now understand how a person can die from a broken heart!! I know that for the most part, I have gotten better in my anger over losing you, but, I have a hard time with people here whose words are an attempt to help me "MOVE ON" with my life, that this is what you want for me. You see, I know that you will always be with me, giving me the support and patience that I need right now. I have never had anyone in my life who loves me the way you do without judging where I am emotionally or judging the feelings I am experiencing. Thank you so very much,J.R., for all the love,companionship,respect and all of the "LIFE'S LESSONS" we chose to experience together in this lifetime!! Thank you for walking next to me in body and spirit!! Please continue and help me to find a purpose during the time I have left on earth so that I feel like a whole human/spiritual being once again. I send ALL of my LOVE and look forward to the moment we are reunited when I complete my "LIFE'S LESSONS" and shed this "WORN" fleshy vessel. God Bless!!

JULIA WONDER

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