Joe, We never had the chance to get to know eachother. I am sure that somewhere, in your usual sarcastic way, you are saying that it's all my fault because I was so resistant and wouldn't just give you the chance to show me that there was something worth knowing about you. Well, now you're gone, and I miss the feelings that I had begun to associate with you. I miss the feeling of looking forward to getting to know you and allowing you to know me. I miss anticipating your calls and seeing you around work. I miss the feeling that you were drawing me into a new world- you world. You made me feel beautiful and worthy of love. Especially when you were persistent even after I had resisted your advances. I believed that you saw in me something more than just the way that I looked or some fun that could be had. I feel that in the short time that we did get to spend together, that you taught me some things about myself. You definitely showed me that I was more judgemental than I would have liked to admit. You also helped me to recognize that I was allowing the fear associated with not knowing how things were going to turn out to keep me from experiencing life. I hope that in the future, I will be able to change these things about myself, and I will attribute the change to you. I don't know why things happened like this. I don't know why it was your turn to go and why we had so little time, or even why we had any time at all. Your passing is an example of one of those serendipitous events that ties together the lives of many people. Your passing will forever be a turning point in the lives of those who miss you in one way or another. People may come closer, others may wander apart. People may come closer to God, and still others might feel more skeptical. Some people will move away, hoping to have an adventure that will make the pain of your loss less acute. Others still may begin to love and cherish those things that are right around them here at home. For myself, I still don't know what this effect your death will have on my life, but I know that there will be one. In some way, Joe, I feel that you were one of God's angels, sent here with a purpose. So many people loved you and were touched by you- you have had an enormous effect on people's lives and in that sense you are God's helper and messenger. I don't believe that it is over for you, nor do I believe that you have arrived at a destination. I believe that for you the journey continues and that we may even meet again in the Earth plane in one of your future incarnations as you move closer to Home. I pray that God allow our paths to cross again sometime soon and that we may know eachother somehow. I miss you Joe, and if there were anything that could be done to bring you back, to have your presence on this Earth again, I am sure that there are plenty of people, including myself, who would do whatever was in our power. But there isn't. And so we continue to try to make sense of this and see it as God's grace. But even more, we continue to have faith in its reason and surrender our pain to God so that he may take it from us and teach us joy anew.

God Bless You Joe.Thank you for trying to be my friend.I hope to be able to return the favor. Love Always, Christy Rose Flowers

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