Anit really gone My baby aint really gone but, yet I still cry he's there up in the sky. I try to stay strong for the family so they can't see all my pain but then it all hits like one big train. He's up there in every star but, yet he seems so far. Even though my baby is no longer livin on the earth doesn't mean he's lost his worth. I wonder what my baby is doing everyday then I look up to the heavens and start to pray. God, please tell my baby I love him and miss him so much tell him I miss playing with him, holding him and such. I often wonder if you saw me that day did you see me trying to save you, then them just taking you away. Did you see me when I was crying with you in my arms did you see me trying to wrap you up in a blanket trying to keep you warm. Did you see me hit the floor when they told me you didn't make it do you know this day I will never forget. Apart of me died on the day I found you the same day every mother's nightmare comes true. The ride to say my final good-bye was the longest loneliest ride of my life yes, your daddy was by my side but no matter what I'll still strive. When I walked down that hallway, I felt chills go up my spine knowing now that all my days have now lost their shine. I saw you laying there on that bed and I knew I wasn't ready for this road ahead. I kiss my hand and touched the top of you head tears started to roll as I finally relised you was dead. But baby now I know you didn't leave this world alone you left this world in my arms even thought to me it was unknown. You wasn't struggling to catch your breath it hit so hard, your sudden death. I couldn't belive you let go of life that easy, so easy I didnt even notice anything I just keep rocking you and singing. I'm sorry I couldn't help you baby but, I tried it was to late when I had got to you because you had already died. I love you with all my heart and no matter what in my heart you will never be forgot. Decated to: Dakota Allen Bowling

Love, mommy we miss you so much

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