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***Mother's Day Without a Mother***

Tomorrow is Mother's Day, but I do not have a Mother.
What should I do?
Celebrate motherhood by honoring all mothers?
I am sure eventually that will be a good idea.
But not THIS Mother's Day.
I do not feel like celebrating.
You see, this is my first Mother's Day without my Mother.

My mother died since last Mother's Day.
I don't even remember last Mother's Day.
I'm sure I sent her a card last Mother's Day.
And talked to her on the phone last  Mother's Day.
I may have even given a gift to her last Mother's Day.
But not this Mother's Day.
You see, this is my first Mother's Day without my Mother.

Oh, some people might tell me that I still have a Mother.
"She *just* isn't here."
Why should that make me feel any better?
She is not here.
That is the reality that makes this Mother's Day painful.
She is not here.
You see, this is my first Mother's Day without my Mother.

I was her middle child, her third child, and her third son.
When I was born, she kept repeating:
"Another crazy little boy. Another crazy little boy..."
I tried to live up to that expectation.
But I always knew she loved me.
I am still surprised when my father answers the phone.
You see, this is my first Mother's Day without my Mother.

To you who still have a mother on this side of Eternity, I say:
Celebrate your mother... don't just celebrate Mother's Day.
Talk to your mother... don't just speak to her.
Give yourself to your mother... don't just give her something.
Love your mother... don't just tell her that you love her.
Listen to the advice of a son who is having a hard time celebrating.
You see, this is my first Mother's Day without my Mother.

Tomorrow is Mother's Day, but I do not have a Mother.
What should I do??

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(In loving memory of Mariruth Barker Hawkins from her third "crazy little
boy")
 

Copyright James Hawkins, 1999 For permission to copy, contact the author c/o [email protected]

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