My Dear Sister..I miss you so much. Four weeks have passed since you died and still I can't get through the day without you in my thoughts. There are times when Nicholas does something cute and the only person I want to tell is you. Sometimes I want to tell you things so much that my heart aches. Who do I tell now? I was so proud of your achievements, but never told you just how much. You were so brave with your fight against the pancreatic cancer, so brave. I wish I could have told you just how brave I thought you were. You never let it get you down, and always had a smile even when the doctors told you how bad your circustances were, you still smiled. I tried so hard to find you treatments to get you well. I still have so many regrets when you died. I regret that I could't help you live, I regret that we never got to take that vacation together. Now we never will. I'd tried to be the best sister I could be. I'd give anything, any possession on earth, to spend another day with you. I will spend the rest of my life missing you, George-Ayn. You guided me through life and helped me to become the person I am today. There are so many things I wouldn’t have done if it weren’t for your encouragement. You gave me more confidence than you’ll ever know; I guess you knew all along that I had it in me and just need to be pushed. My son has been denied of a wonderful Aunt. An Aunt that would teach him golf and encourage him to be the best that he can be. You had so much kindness and compassion for others and never thought of yourself. I was amazed to find out that you took your dogs to nursing homes to make the elderly smile. There are probably other things you did for people that I will never know of. You were so courageous in this struggle to beat this despicable disease. I tried my best to research treatments and had plans for further attack to help you to triumph over it. It was too physically powerful for you to prevail over. Even though you are no longer with us, this struggle is not over George-Ayn; I will go forth to fight for funds to make early detection or a cure for this disease found so no others will experience the atrocities of pancreatic cancer and your suffering along with mom’s will not be in vain.
I will LOVE and MISS YOU FOREVER. Toni
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