Ashleigh, you were my bestfriend, and I know that as long as I live I will never meet a better person. You were there for me when I needed you most, you accepted me when others wouldn't, you loved me for who I was, and you gave me more than I deserved. You trusted me, as no one else had, and I thank you for that. But most of all I thank you for the memories you gave me, and the lessons you taught me. If someone had told me that you would have been taken from us so soon, before you even got a chance to experience life, I would have laughed at them. How could God take such a wonderful, loving, caring, unique person from this world? I guess He missed you. Well now I miss you, but I know that you are up in Heaven, watching over all of us. You may not be standing next to me physically, but your in my heart, and you always will be. I love you so much, and I miss you so much. I will never forget you, Ashleigh, you will always be with me. Love, 'Hessica'
"There's holes in the floor of Heaven, and her tears are pouring down, that's how we know she's watching, wishing she could be here now. And sometimes when I'm lonely, I remember she can see, 'cause there's holes in the floor of Heaven and she's watching over you and me."
A NOTE TO ALL: Ashleigh, my best friend, as well as another close friend of mine, and a young man I did not know, were all killed in a car accident on Halloween night of 2000. All of them were killed due to the stupidity of other teens. All of them were ripped from there friends and family because of an immature prank. Because of that prank a young man has to live with the fact that he KILLED his 3 best friends. Because of that prank three families have to go on living with holes in their hearts, holes left by the loss of their loved one. Right now I can feel the empty space in my heart, a space that used to be filled with love and laughter, shared with my best friends. I hope no one else has to face this pain, this anger, this emptiness. I will never get my friends back; I can never laugh with them again, I can never cry with them again, I can never call them again. I only have memories, and though it's something, it's not enough. Don't be stupid. You are not invisible, you are not immortal, you can say "That won't ever happen to me", or you can think that it won't happen to someone you know, and love. I thought the same thing, and I was wrong. In an instant, because of a stupid decision, I lost the best friends I ever had. Just remember that next time you want to race with someone on the road, or the next time you THINK your sober enough to drive, YOUR WRONG. Better safe than sorry.
Signed in loving memory of Ashleigh S. Toombs
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