Grandma, I still can't believe you're gone. It's been four years and it still burns inside of me that you were taken away the way that you were. It wasn't your time. There have been so many times I've needed you. You were the one that inspired me, helped me grow as the years went by, the one that uplifted my spirits whenever I was down, the one special person that could always make me feel special no matter what the circumstances were. I still remember sitting on the porch everynight with a cup of coffee in one hand and a cigarette in the other, talking about whatever, and everything. There was only one true secret that I held from you, but I'm sure that you know what that is now. I even lost Ashley, "that darn cat" (as you use to say) a few years after you went away. She was ninteen. I know you're taking good care of her. Mom and I finally have gotten very close. It took so long, but I believe that is one thing that you left for us, I'm so thankful and greatful that you did. I'm so sorry that I wasn't a better grandson to you. I did do a lot of things that would upset you, but you never would let me know that it did, I was always perfect in your eyes. After you became sick at the hospital, it was so hard for everyone and I to take care of you, but I kept pushing myself and pushing myself, you had taken such good care of me, I had to do the same in return for you. Even though I didn't like the situation, it even made me feel better to do so, I knew you were getting what you deserved. I didn't mind staying up late at night with you, keeping you company, and doing all the other things I had to do. After you passed on, I knew that you were with me through finishing high school the way I did, and in the time I did, please be with me twice as strong right now... I'm really needing it through these college years. I'm trying my best to make you proud. I love you grandma, I miss seeing those beautiful green eyes of yours.
Your loving grandson, Joshua A. Johnson
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