To my much-loved Grandmother....
I'm not sure whether I should be writing this to you now. It's been almost three years since you died and I guess I'm finally starting to deal with the fact that you are no longer here.
I'm not exactly sure how to put into words what the last three years have been like without your guiding hand on my shoulder. There have been times when I have wondered "What would Grandmother say if she saw me doing this?" There have been other times when I knew you would have been proud of me...like when i got straight A's at College in the months after your death.
I still wonder how I managed to pull of straight A's when I never felt more unmotivated to study. I actually wanted to throw it all away but some advice from my dearest friend, Frank made me realise how pointless that would have been. I was also going to throw away the Presidency of the Student Association, but I knew you'd be angry if I did.
I know this will sound really strange, but your death had one good thing come of it...Frank and I are much closer....well as close as a Priest and Parishoner can be...Thank you for making me finally see how important he really is to me and how much I need him in my life....even if I didn't realise it before.
There's so much more I want to say, but I do not think this is the time nor the place to do it. I know you are looking down on me from Heaven and that is a very comforting thought.
With love and grateful thanks...
Your loving Granddaughter..
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